Flotation device required?

Sometimes you just want to scream out, but when you are drowning, it will only make the problem worse. Right?? So what is the point of even trying to survive? You are deep in the ocean waters and if you stop fighting, the end will come, won't it. You won't have to fight anymore. Right?

I know, I know, but if you stop fighting, you are not going to receive the same blessings as if you keep fighting. I get it.

Now you may be wondering why I'm all in the I want to give up but know I can't moment, so I'll tell you.

I'm not depressed. I don't hate life. I actually really don't have a whole lot to complain about right now. So how in the world am I in this place?

Since the move I have hardly accomplished anything besides getting the house unpacked. What is a girl to do? It seems pretty simple, right? Get out and do some service, I just don't know where to start. How do I go about finding ways to serve? I already volunteered for the pta, but that job is done now. What next? I'm trying to learn how to play the piano better for primary. I'm trying to keep my house clean. I'm trying to be a good friend.

So why do I feel like there is more I can do, but can not figure out what.  I am at a loss. I know I have a purpose here. Why else would I be here? I want to say, I'm miserable and I just need a hug. I want someone to come up to me and reassure me that things will work out. I can't say that on Facebook though because so many people question as to why I'm feeling this way and the truth is, I don't know. So I think I'll put on my floaties and pray that they are strong enough to hold me above the water. I'll do My best and try to keep my head above the water. Until next time....really hoping there is one.

Not giving up, just discouraged.