Distanced

It seems it has been about 6 months since I have written anything here. I have struggled a bit with some things which have really kept me away. I am learning that life is very full of interesting challenges. I am going to be here more often as I want to work hard to become closer to my Heavenly Father.

The way to become closer is by praying and studying the scriptures. It doesn't matter what religion you are. I have recently been through a bout of uneasiness regarding being close to Heavenly Father. I struggled with trust so much that I prevented myself from hearing any guidance or feeling his love. It was a dark time where I felt alone. 

I was never alone. He was always there beside me, patiently waiting for me to open my heart and let him in. I had stopped praying for a long time because I decided that I was not going to be able to hear him, that he would never answer my prayers or offer his help when I needed it the most. Turns out I was very wrong.

He did distance himself from me, and that is where things got a lot harder. I felt alone and tired most of the time from trying to figure out why he was distancing himself from me. In my heart I did not realize that I had done it to myself. I needed to be praying and studying my scriptures and I wasn't. I never felt like what I had learned in the church was wrong. I still believe it with all my heart. I had no intentions of leaving or quitting. I just had a time of great struggle that I needed to find my way back and do the things I was supposed to be doing to get him to come closer to me again.

I think we all go through times where we forget to read or pray and it becomes a habit. Hopefully I can work to avoid this happening again. I really have faith that as we do good and we keep the commandments, we will always have him by our side. 

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